Today, in monthly sacrifices…

CW for inadvertent self-harm

…… ugh.

ugh ugh ugh.

Once again I have stabbed myself with my own fingernail and got deep enough that the divot I somehow dig out of me wouldn’t stop bleeding for a while.

A photo of the last joint of a white person's finger, with a clipped fingernail several millimeters shorter than the end of the finger.
This is the offending fingernail. Yes, I can slice skin off me with fingernails THIS short.

This is why, in the time before 2020, I’d go to nail salons. It wasn’t necessarily to make myself pretty, though I do love the colors and iridescences that nail polishes provide.

No, it was to keep me from doing regular damage to myself.

I know I can do gel polish myself, at home, but I am spectacularly bad at filing my own damn nails (see image above), and I’m a disaster at taking care of my cuticles. I’ve tried, repeatedly, but I’m so uncoordinated I keep giving myself hangnails.

I did go back to get a manicure two weeks after the second vaccination. I stayed masked the whole time, but, yknow, other people partaking of services are not so nice. So now I occasionally Venmo these poor folks who don’t have other options, and I stay away so I’m not possibly infecting my older upstairs neighbor, with whom we share a front door and basement.

Because, you know, that’s what you DO. You look after folks.

Every now and then I think about the people who used to yell about needing to go to the hair salon or get a haircut and here I am, with fingernails that literally shave the skin on my own damn hands, and I am STILL not going to the nail salon, even though they’re open. Makes me want to kick down a door or two, shove my bleeding fingers in their face and say “BLEEDING HEARTS ARE MORE KICKASS THAN YOU THINK, FUCKERS.”


Right. Time to switch the bandage.

Published by killerpuppytails

Really Quite Deadly.

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