Day 201, gray with upcoming nightmare

CW: Pandemic, quarantine, US politics . We’ve had cloudy, rainy weather for the past several days but it feels unreal, like something I’m watching in a movie. I don’t know if it’s because I don’t go out in it or if it’s because I’ve only left the apartment 3x or if it’s because my governmentContinue reading “Day 201, gray with upcoming nightmare”

Day 180, with simultaneous fear and joy

This freaking world is both terrifying and hopeful. I posted this on Facebook, but figure it’s worth repeating publicly. CN: discussion of quarantineAlso, this is long, so if you don’t have the bandwidth to read a lot, skip to the 3rd pgph from the bottom… I did the math and noted that today it isContinue reading “Day 180, with simultaneous fear and joy”

Day 147, with… well, everything.

CW: pandemic, explosions, death, chronic illness One of the aspects of this timeline I’m struggling with right now is having to hold multiple intense emotions at once. The multiple horrors here in America, pandemic-related and too many others. The horrific explosions in Beirut. India’s rising COVID numbers. But someone’s suing the NRA. Protests are notContinue reading “Day 147, with… well, everything.”

Day 136, with both Freedom and Unfreedom

CW: pandemic, fascism, kidnapping, sexual abuse This was going to be a post about feeling freed from a long burden. About the moment where you know, really deep in your gut know, that your abuser can never, ever touch you again. That kind of freedom. But given that people in Portland Oregon are being snatchedContinue reading “Day 136, with both Freedom and Unfreedom”

Day 100, and holy CRAP

8.5 million cases worldwide. 2.2M in the US. Well over 450K dead. 120K of which are in the US. We’ve been seeing spikes because of Memorial Day weekend openings. Because people couldn’t wait. Let alone mask. Protests continue for the fourth weekend. Confederate statues and portraits are coming down. But people are guarding others. WithContinue reading “Day 100, and holy CRAP”

Day 86, with # Black Lives Matter

This thing, which should not even be a contentious statement, is the reason for the full week of massive protests here in Philadelphia, in America, and even the world. I support all the BLM protesters under all conditions. ALL conditions. …. If you are reading this and the statement Black Lives Matter is somehow uncomfortableContinue reading “Day 86, with # Black Lives Matter”

New Moon Rant – v1

CN: this is about the virus. Some people say that humans are all relatively similar on a base level – that we all want the same things. Survival, safety, love, belonging, pleasure, self-esteem. That we can understand each other better if we understand that. Maslow, Grawe, Gagné and so so many more – psychologists haveContinue reading “New Moon Rant – v1”