CW: pandemic musings As of today, 666 days. My heart beats. The dogs murmur in their sleep. Cold floats around the windows. And outside, a devil of a virus churns through the population. 666 days of hiding from this awful thing, because apparently there’s no fighting it. After years of successfully missing it, many ofContinue reading “Day 666”
I honestly don’t know what I was imagining this year would hold by the end of 2020.
(the title is the CW.) It’s my true father’s birthday later this week. It took me a while to figure out that this is why I’ve been so tired, so angry, so unable to do things. Because grief is weird, & for me, every time it swells it decides to do something new, just toContinue reading “Landscape of Grief”
Last year, at this exact time (3:45 pm), my boss was telling my team to take anything personal home with us. Closure had not yet been announced at work, but illnesses were escalating dramatically and the situation in Westchester County, NY, was already devastating, to the point where they’d announced a mile-wide “containment zone” aroundContinue reading “Day 365. Holy Cow.”
Late yesterday our wee family got a bit of bad news. CN: discussing non-pandemic illness & crisis responses along with general pandemic & quarantine stuff. . First thing to note is that it’s not us – we’re all fine – but it’s very close to us. Second is that it’s not COVID, but it’s definitelyContinue reading “Day 310, at a bit of a loss”
CN: physical health issues I don’t think I’ve been this tired since I was ending my tenure at MediaEmpireTM over a decade ago. So much to attend to, & very little mental or physical energy to deal with it all. I’ve been struggling with some weird severe hip pain since early November, something my docContinue reading “Day 268, with exhaustion, also glee”
“People elsewhere are yelling about how horrible it is that state governments are headed for the oh-so-frequently-predicted-earlier-in-the-year second lockdown. Because it’s “cancelling Thanksgiving” or “cancelling Christmas.”
CW: Pandemic, quarantine, US politics . We’ve had cloudy, rainy weather for the past several days but it feels unreal, like something I’m watching in a movie. I don’t know if it’s because I don’t go out in it or if it’s because I’ve only left the apartment 3x or if it’s because my governmentContinue reading “Day 201, gray with upcoming nightmare”