Day 180, with simultaneous fear and joy

This freaking world is both terrifying and hopeful. I posted this on Facebook, but figure it’s worth repeating publicly. CN: discussion of quarantineAlso, this is long, so if you don’t have the bandwidth to read a lot, skip to the 3rd pgph from the bottom… I did the math and noted that today it isContinue reading “Day 180, with simultaneous fear and joy”

Day 147, with… well, everything.

CW: pandemic, explosions, death, chronic illness One of the aspects of this timeline I’m struggling with right now is having to hold multiple intense emotions at once. The multiple horrors here in America, pandemic-related and too many others. The horrific explosions in Beirut. India’s rising COVID numbers. But someone’s suing the NRA. Protests are notContinue reading “Day 147, with… well, everything.”

Day 136, with both Freedom and Unfreedom

CW: pandemic, fascism, kidnapping, sexual abuse This was going to be a post about feeling freed from a long burden. About the moment where you know, really deep in your gut know, that your abuser can never, ever touch you again. That kind of freedom. But given that people in Portland Oregon are being snatchedContinue reading “Day 136, with both Freedom and Unfreedom”

Day 100, and holy CRAP

8.5 million cases worldwide. 2.2M in the US. Well over 450K dead. 120K of which are in the US. We’ve been seeing spikes because of Memorial Day weekend openings. Because people couldn’t wait. Let alone mask. Protests continue for the fourth weekend. Confederate statues and portraits are coming down. But people are guarding others. WithContinue reading “Day 100, and holy CRAP”

Day 80, with Nebulas, Protests and Curfews

Holy crap, folks. Okay, so first, because it’s most MOST important and this blog is for me to remember dates and times things happened* as much as it is to share with others, this past weekend there were nationwide protests about police brutality, systemic racism and government-sanctioned murder. It’s amazing to watch these protests unfold,Continue reading “Day 80, with Nebulas, Protests and Curfews”

New Moon Rant – v1

CN: this is about the virus. Some people say that humans are all relatively similar on a base level – that we all want the same things. Survival, safety, love, belonging, pleasure, self-esteem. That we can understand each other better if we understand that. Maslow, Grawe, Gagné and so so many more – psychologists haveContinue reading “New Moon Rant – v1”

Day 70, with Chocolate

I’m at that point in the negotiations between my allergies and my foodieness/not-quite-supertasting thing where everything I can eat that I can make for myself is annoying for some reason, except for chocolate*. Thing is, I also swell like a balloon when I eat too much sugar, so regular chocolate is pretty much out rightContinue reading “Day 70, with Chocolate”